Pandemic – Thoughts on Future Personal Spending and Budgeting

I usually do not prepare much when I am writing a post.

I just type it down just like how my brain wants me to say.

I have read through some of my previous journals and I am happy I did that last time. (although reading them back make me cringe SO much), but I've realised I've also grown so much as a person mentally! 

For the next phase of MCO, I would like to type out my thought in here and let it be jotted down as a journal for my future references.

It has been a while since I write my last post, in fact, 4 years. Major contribution definitely is the MCO; that has left me with so much free time.

It is also scary to see how this pandemic is causing big downward spiral of the economy. 

To be honest, to us, or at least to me, the impact of this pandemic on my job, at this moment (DAY41), is still not quite apparent. We receive our basic pay as usual for the past 2 months (without entering to the office). Our allowance, however, has been deducted throughout the MCO period.

I think this decision is fair, since we are not even travelling to get and coordinate projects. No project is moving and neither is our production line.

I presume after this pandemic is over, our company is going to be more conservative in restructuring its budget allocation. Of course, one of those plans is to be more conscious on overhead allocation. This means that the chances of getting pay raise is lesser. I have to accept the fact that bonuses will get lesser. And this trend will remain for at least 3-5 years.

In fact, this is the nature of my job. I am working in a manufacturing company which supply construction-related materials. When construction field is slowed down, so does our company.

Unlike other field, eg: logistic and shipping, education, F&B related where the demand is still on-going, I can see they can recover in a faster pace than us.

One thing I have to look at is for sure to diversify my income sources. Active income for me is a must as those are the income that is more realistic and grounded. Passive income like investing has its risks. Besides, I have lower interest towards managing its risks and to full time study its strategy. Juggling between my work and investing is also challenging for me.

So all in all, the only thing I have to do right now is to be mentally prepared to cut down on spending. The best measure is to have a change in my lifestyle. Spend less and be more money conscious.

1.      To cut down on vacation trips (this is one of the most painful decision that I have to make)

2.      Spend lesser online on insignificant things

3.      Stop chasing for latest gadget trend

4.      Opt for cheaper alternatives for social lunch, gym, etc.

To be clear, I think I don’t dramatically spend on something useless or unnecessary. See, I don’t subscribe Netflix or Spotify (well for obvious reason, it is not a necessity for me and we can get it online for *cough* free *cough* anway). I don’t change my phone that often (the last time I upgrade my phone was a 4 years old iPhone). I do, however, LOVE traveling with my friends and family (but we always opted for cheaper places mainly ASEAN region). I am not a sneaker head (I don’t really understand this hobby). I seldom go for expensive fancy restaurant. (well, I’m still a Single motha-fakkaaa). So basically I am quite a boring person in general. 

Basically the above is still manageable and the only thing I need to remind myself is that I don’t “progress” myself into the type of mindset where spending more on luxurious is equivalent to more happiness.

I have trust in my own company, but I low-key think that the future prospect is going to be tough. I sincerely hope that everything will go back to normal, and for me, progress forward as smooth as the past 4 years in the company. 

See you in the next post. 

Nonsense 2016.. what have I done?

I have been too addicted to mobile phone gaming lately.
once I came back from work I will drained up my phone battery just by keep playing the game..
then go to bed.. then wake up for work, and come back from work again just to play the game.. and repeat.
and that is how I spend my time after work for almost everyday.
#worklifebalance #wtf

I know this has to stop.
But till now I still unable to figure out how to do that.

thank god I still have the realisation that I know this ain't good for me.

So here I am, back at it again blogging.
I am here blogging cos I know I have to change!
Like what I usually do every year, I write my 'goals' here,
and when I know I have written them down.. I will have the responsibility to accomplish it!

Although not every aims I have written down are fully resolved, but I am happy at least I am aware of what should I do and try to do that.

This leads me of thinking why there are a saying which says that: "Don't tell your goals to somebody or you will not achieve them".
I don't think this theory is completely true.
Sometimes if we tell somebody of what we want to achieve in the future, we tend to have the pressure applies to ourselves, or rather, a goal.. a motivation.. for us to have hope, and try our best to achieve it.

Goals for me can have a lot of definitions..
Goals can be as small as :
1. To spend less time on FB
2. To play only half an hour maximum on mobile game daily
3. To spend less time on YouTube watching nonsense videos =..=!! (BuzzFeed wtf bullshit and tempting at the same time) making people less productive for so many years.
4. To spend more time reading.. books/article
5. To reward myself sometimes a.k.a. to be less stingy.. lol. saving up and don't know how to spend. wtf
6. To spend less time in the living room (ok.. this is getting too specific.. this is not a goal wtf LOL)

Goals can be as big as :
1. To be good at what I am doing (the definition of good? still unclear.. (I have to write a separate post about this later))
2. Find a partner in crime (not trying to force it.. but.. I know it will be bad for me if I still refuse/have the guts to commit in a relationship)

So!
2017 is about the year of CHANGE. In a better way.
I have a lot of things to express.. but ain't no other way better to express other than writing them down.

So fingers crossed.
Here comes another new year, and growing another year older.. before hitting mid-life crisis..

Treat me better 2017!
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Blogging is time consuming..
Usually a blog post like this will cost me an hour.. 
because of my limited vocab.. and constantly wanted to read back.. (suck at blogging)
so I have no intention to write a blog as often as what I did during school/uni time.
depends on mood tho.. I enjoy blogging anyway.

My Working Life : The Day I Quit My Job

Don't know if I am suppose to write this in the blog.. feel that when I become famous one day all the people will dig this out and scandalize me *PUIIIIII* #behpaiseh

But seeing my blog has documented so many of my past stories.. reading them some of them make me cringe, but some of them make me smile so much.
how innocent I am whining about my life, which makes me look so dumb. eventhough now still not smart 
and sometimes I feel like deleting my blog and start a whole new one so that all these dumb memories can never be brought back to me.
however, thinking back to this.. I feel like all these blog posts are super precious! all my life has been documented down at that particular moment when I felt that way.
Take it as the part of the process in life yo!!
Always stay positive! I wanted my post to be in this way too because I am afraid if I do it the other way around, the next time I read back all the negative energy will brought back to me. #tooabstract lol

To write about my working life is literally only thing I can write now.
Cos that is what I am all about now...

People is surprised when I say I have changed my job.
As a fresh graduate with less than a year of working experience changing a new job seems to give people a not-so-welcoming impression to yourself.
Personally, dealing with all of these is not easy too.

I broke down many times before I have decided to hand in the resignation letter.
I did not tell anyone about this.
My parents were kinda shocked when I told them I have resigned from my last company.
Just kinda.. not really really shocked.., I think they have predicted this day will come, but not so soon, and just.. still a bit beyond what they have expected that I would do.

Only come to realise is that I have been so naive and mentally un-prepare for all the work flow and the nature of the work that threw to me in such a short time.
It is not a bit at all that I have issues with the boss or colleagues.. My boss even wanted to give me a raise in pay.
Rather than saying I am still not able to cope with the company's environment, I would say it is more about the nature of the job.
I thought I am capable and mentally prepared! But I have to admit I am not!
I broke down part of the reason is that I have found my weakness and I cannot deal with it.
I gave myself so much unnecessary pressure despite I can just let it go.
I brought home so much of the emotion in work back to home.
and this is wrong.
absolutely soooooooooo wrong!! A BIG NO NO!!

So I stopped.
and started thinking what to do with my life now. ha-ha, LKW, you have no choice but to stand up and move on. people are running and you just stop down? not even slowing down but stop it completely. wtf

I started browsing for new job.
I have only few months of experience in this industry.
I have received so little feedback from all the company that I have sent in my application.
the industry is slowing down.
that is the reason.
I always thought it was just a saying people will talk about in the kopitiam.
and at that moment of my life I started to felt it.
what if no company wants to take me?
Is it I am not good enough?
Did I made a wrong decision?
what is the next step I am going to do?

all these questions keep shooting in to my mind.

I took things for granted. That was the lesson learnt.
NEVER TAKE EVERYTHING FOR GRANTED!
Just when I thought changing a new environment could be better for me, I was so wrong.
I don't even have the chance to be in the new environment now.

That was inner struggle that I have been through from this process.
The insecurity hit me so hard.
I just need someone to understand that I have no choice but to move to a new environment, but I need support. I need people to listen and understand... but I felt embarrassed to talk about it to my friends.

and then almost a month later I received several interview invitations. (I have sent in more than 15 applications)
and I received several offers.
thank god.
all the negative thoughts that hit me during that time has instantly flushed down to the drain.
but I know I need to calm down and make this important decision.
and to always remember all the lesson that I have learnt from this painful experience and to make a decision that will not make me regret again.
I need to decide on my career, this is not just plainly a job for me.

It took me 2 weeks to reply the offers.
I sincerely grateful and thanked them for their offer. Thank you for seeing my capability and giving me a chance to offer me a position in your company.
They saved me from all the insecurity in my heart. Indirectly, they build all my confident back.

and then I made this decision to be in my current company.
gotten my confirmation.
thank god.
I am all good now..
I hope all my family and friends are happy for me too...

I have learnt so much from this experience.
I can't imagine when this happened to me for the first time when I am at my 30s or 40s.
I know I have to stepped up the game. I need to be more competitive.
and not to be this weak anymore.
I really mean it.

It also makes me realise the priority in my life.
There so much of ego in me. I can feel it.
I don't know why but career to me right now at this point is everything to me.
I feel like all the dramas that I have had from my past that I tend to care so much has become so minimal to me. I am paralysed to these. Numb and no feeling towards it.
hahaha.. tell me I am old now.

ohhh wait..
my Clash Royale notification has just popped up.

the clan needs me!
*entering battle and fully focused*

wait.. ehem.
what is my priority now?
OPSSSSSSSSSSS
.
.
.
.
hit me baby one more time. *britney spears' impersonation*
SUPER RANDOM ENDING LAH DUHHHHH!!!

Motivation need to recharge

We have been surrounded by competition along the way when we grow up.

Kindergarten
Aunties Uncles will be asking if I get 100 for my test. And start comparing with their kids.

Primary School
Remember the time when smart student is the coolest kid in the class?
We all want to be the kid that every other kids look up to. This motivation develop within me and makes me want to study harder.
I remember I will jot down the result of the top 3 kids in the class just to keep track of their progress.

KIASU to the MAX LAH OI.
HAHAHA
#stillaloser

Secondary School
Parents send us to tuition. 10 subjects yo. #badass #IKR
We study from morning 7am till 11pm.
Thinking back those days.. the amount of effort we put into study.. it is CRAZY right!!

But I enjoy it very much.
Cos I am always surrounded by these peer pressure. Positive peer pressure = Motivation.
And during one class, few months before SPM, my add math tuition teacher told us everyone about motivation, to set priority, to know your goals.
That was the time my motivation MAX out like crazy. Instant level up! #toomuchgaming

I believe motivation need to be recharged constantly.
I dunno if there is a proverb or quote or phrase for that, but I truly believe that.

Stepped into the society almost a year now (2 months from now), my motivation dropped so much.
Working with no purpose is no good for me.

I need to start develop the habit of reading. and surround with motivated people, inspiring people, and open my ears and listen and learn from them.

LKW, stop phone gaming and TV and YOUTUBE! and FB.

lol

start reading!!!!

(the inner me: I DONT LIKE TO READ!!! NOT EVEN CELEBRITY ARTICLE LAH AHHHHHHH)

Not Motivated. FML.

I still remember when I was in a book fair and holding this book titled "Idiot's Guide: Business Success in your 20s and 30s.
I flipped through some pages, and then my friend ask me if I will read it.
it is only RM8. I thought it is a good deal.
"Books will not expired".

dust-off.

and now.
this book still stay beside my bed.
I am lazy like this.
and it seems like it expire soon.

lol

baka...

I still remember those days when I used to compete with my friend who will be the one who know the latest pop song that tops the billboard chart first. I will be constantly on Spotify listening for new potential songs that were added into the playlist (kiasu wtf).
and I carefully analyse and listen to the lyrics/flow of the song. if the song connects and has a good vibe, I will be the first to share it with them.
and when the song become super popular later I will feel super accomplished. *punch fist to the air

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Those days were just 3 months back!

At this moment of my life, working 9 to 9 wtf. come back home dinner (or supper or whatever you like to call it its already 9 wtf) finally able to loosen up the intensed-ambience that I have been already bearing it for  the last 10 hours. and feeling super tired. don't even feel like doing anything at that point of my life. not even want to think. just have my brain be empty.

and when I come to realise it will be 12am and I should be on my bed sleeping.

swiping FB looking at my friend posting his own cooks
somehow make me admire them so much because they can still have the time to develop new hobby while working.

work life is tough. tougher than how I used to imagine.
cos I used to be just surrounded by job that I am familiar with... mom is an accountant, dad working on business, relatives were all working on either business or administrator work. teachers, lecturers, logistic industry, retail shopping mall.. that's all.

as a fresh graduate that newly step into engineering industry, must have a tough heart to face it.

future can be bright. but bright is subjective.
it depends whether if you want it this way. 80% of the day is occupied with works. and some people in this industry are even crazier, work till midnight and come back on weekend to work.
pay is attractive of course. but does it really worth it?

maybe it is just me being too vulnerable? or still unable to settle down.

thanks to Haji holiday I get to have the time to make my plan and to think about what is my next step a little bit.

and then I came across this post when I was swiping FB.. which I find it should be something that I should ponder about.

Signs that shows that a man is not mature:

1 think and don't do
2 like to make excuses
3 bring home shitty emotion from work
4 too honest to talk about the past relationship
5 make too much promises that cannot be kept
6 express all kinda emotion too easily
7 easily trust the 'no's by woman
8 no savings

things guys shouldn't be doing: 

1 no vision and objective
2 wasting time
3 too dependent
4 not decisive
5 not planning for future
6 reject to any kind of advice
7 not ready to commit in a relationship

yes. 
hit me so hard in de face. 

haiz.

baka....

THE POSITIVE ENERGY

So what prompted me to write a blog post on this unusual day?

choose one?

1) today is the unproductive Sunday and tomorrow is a public holiday (another soon-to-be-unproductive day wtf)
2) procrastinating my study time
3) fingertip too pain after practising guitar
4) feeling lonely

5) I left my G2 refill in the hostel and I have no blue ink pen to write my notes
6) feeling disappointed and helpless for not knowing how to deal with the reality that I got the JACKPOT for my final year project

the answer is.......

all of the above!!

OMG!

before starting my final year I have the visions all written in my calender book, saying that I need to be super ambitious and focus on my final year. 

I think I've written something like this: 

"YES YOU HANDSOME GUY, FINAL YEAR IS ALL ABOUT NOT TAKING UP UNNECESSARY RISKS. YOU KNOW YOU ARE DUMB, AND NOT AS EXCEL AS OTHER STUDENT, BUT STILL A HANDSOME PRINCE ^^V"  

my motivational quote, ambitious ya? wtf

jk lah.

but what I wanted was to 'peacefully' score all of the papers for the last 2 semester and graduate. 

but something is just not meant to be planned!! 

REALLY?!!

You don't choose the thug life, the thug life chooses you!!!!!

I still remember what I filled up for my title was those 'I think I can handle this' kinda title.

but..

I got 'selected' to do the best title ever. literally.

I bet no one ever wanted to choose that title even the top scorer, cos we all know it is going to be very hard.

but sometimes when you are afraid of something, it just comes back to you. 

ishhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...

but since rice already become porridge, 

must well just face it.

*sigh*

I know it will be super duper sipek super challenging.

dealing it for one year is no joke.

but ya.. 

the only thing I can do is to keep my head held high.

to have the spirit like Bruce Lee!

ATAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

and of course.. to do super well in this semester.. 

cos something is not meant to be planned!!!

BRING IT ON!!!!!

The First Half

Just a blink of eyes, I have survived through the first half of my 6th semester. Time past so fast that I don't even realise that I am already in the holiday week. wtf

So glad that my friend brought his car over from this semester onward. Finally get to travel around places near the university and explore to some new places in Sri Kembangan. Not that I don't have any other friends who didn't bring their car.... but... 

thing is hard to explain.  wtf

Anyway, some of us have decided to share part of the oil expenses also la. Pity him for bringing his car all the way from Chemoh and still have to bring us around. fhl

To recap the entire 7 weeks of this semester:

went to new places to taste some tasty local delicacies 

Spinach noodles with milky ginger-ish soup!

 Fish head bi hoon and 'mice tails'

"When buying people dinner, make sure you buy dinners for people who have bigger dreams than you, and work harder than you." - Li Ka Shing

Won in a contest during semester break and decided to share it out with friends who helped me along throughout these years. 

disclaimer: yeah, in fact there are more people who has helped me, just wait for it okay. I won't forget those dinners I owe you!

As usual, Yin Zi FTW. Due to occasional busy schedule, it's very hard for me to join them. This is the regret but yarh, this year their song composing competition was so great. Love all their music arrangement and all their well-known celebrity judges! Harsh and mean but who cares? We audience enjoyed it! 

First time ever went to Kajang to taste their satay. I love satay and I don't think any satay will goes wrong 

Coursemates came to Klang again. I can now officially declare myself as a professional Klang tour guide. BKT -> I-City -> Dessert

3D paint art. RM10 burnt!

trying to pose like a cool angel, but angel ain't wear spec!

#selfieangel 

weird painting in a way. why la batman has to follow Robin from behind? can't you see the rope is damn thin to support the overweight-looking batman. #superherowithnosuperpower 

MILK!!! look at my thick tongue wtf #notporn 

That was how my first half of semester went.

Not sure is it only me or also the entire whole male human population, I realise that it is pretty hard to do multiple tasking at one freaking time. Especially when one thing is on pending and I started to become very bo sim to do other thing. This freaking semester is for us to decide our compulsory practical training placement. Going through lots of lots of interview sessions + replying lots of lots of e-mail sometime makes me divert my focus on my test 1 a little bit. But thanks to ti gong and guan yin ma, I have been offered to several companies, and I have decided my placement. #blessed

Second half of my semester is all about project coursework and assignment. And not to forget brushing up my carry mark. I guess this is chasing materialistic thing in another way right? fml (I rather to chase after iPad and iPhone)

Last advice to myself and to y'all that even bother to read this: work is endless, plan ahead of how your life is going to be, but be realistic at the same time, then thing will goes well. 

OHM!

Sifu aH Wai. 

Me sux.

It has been more than a month since I update the last post.
Felt like writing a thoughtful introspective post this time, but nahhh...

Again, test is coming next week but don't feel like studying at all.
He claim himself as the "killer", but that doesn't make me to be more worried.
Sometimes laziness just doesn't want me to work something productive. wtf

Looking back at all the test papers I had last 2 weeks made me shiver a little in the heart.
Those questions has killed my brain cells that I might turn Alzheimer's one year earlier. fml

I have a feeling that this semester I will not be able to perform so well.
People may think it is stupid to worry about result in university.. but no. Imagine if I won in this race, I won my entire university fee payment. And it's not that the amount is huge, but it's the achievement that counts.

and.. well, that is also the one thing my people here is fighting for.
and being surrounded by them make me feel the tension also.

But I think this semester no hope already lah.
Let it go, let it go~~~~

well, I hope it is true.

and I would love to have a person telling this kind of motivational thought to me too.

Depressed... :(

Just back in UPM.
sigh -,-
I am not really that emo lah.
Just a bit depressed.
First day here in K10 after 5 weeks.
Not that sad lah tho.
But it took me a moment to think back how to talk to the people here.
*pointing index fingers to the head with eyes closed*
I need that energy back.
Trust me, it consumes energy!
Need some time to adapt loh.

Ya lah, and the worst thing is that not many new/interesting songs coming out these few months to calm my tits mind. \ ^.^"/
My current playlist :
1. Can't Remember to Forget You - Shakira and Rihanna
2. All of me - John Legend
3. American Authors - Best Day of My Life
4. Invisible - Hunter Hayes
5. Cheating - John Letterman

;((

CNY is coming! and some life updates

CNY is coming!

Hands down CNY is always my favourite holiday of the year. (Besides Christmas, Wesak Day, Deevali, Agong's Birthday, Independence Day, ......) 

Okay, as long as there is holiday I am happy. 

Not sure why lah, but I think the main reason of course is all the ang powsssss I will be receiving. *cough* 

Other than that, something that will be quite exciting is that to meet with relatives! I really like the environment of CNY when the living room is always crowded with families and relatives. Sharing small talks and old memories together. 

I must admit that I really am the family guy la. 

I enjoy every moment of it. 

The smiles on the faces, with new red shirt and pants, and CNY cookies and delicacies. >.<

The "inner-family-guy" developed inside of me is because of the way I have been raised, no doubt. 

My family for both of my father and mother side is always very close together. We share talks on the phone, we eat together even if there is no special occasion, we gather and have fun and go for vacation together. And I am really glad this happen to us. 

All of my friends are always very surprised when I told them about this. 

Not to be very cheesy, but the purpose of CNY is always for us to gather and to bond and maintain this kinda relationship la. 

Something that we really need to realise is that, in your every moment of hard times, guess who else will always be at your back? all of your family, of course. And everyone need to realise this at least. 

In conjunction with that, spring cleaning is something you cannot run away from doing it. Friends and family will be coming as guests to your house, and you don't wish to let them to sit in the messy living room. These few days, right away after my final exam I was so busy cleaning the house. (like how I did in every year) (cheh, must give credit to myself)

It is a lot of works to do. No joke. The house we usually think it is small is not small at all when comes to spring cleaning. All the dirt in every corner of the house is indeed very surprising. 

Not to take every credit to myself, but I really don't wish to see my mum and dad after busy working still need to spend their remaining energy to do the cleaning. 

It seems like I am still a little kid saying something like this.. but it's always something that I have it in me. 

But at this age, you can't help it to act like a social networking freak when doing all these works.

My inner monologue: 

"Gosh, so much of dirt and hair on the floor! I am sooooooooo totally gonna upload it on Instagram. 

*snap* #hair #dirt #dirty #omg #tired #springcleaning #rest #rewardformyself #restfor5hours #need100plus #cny #ihateit #handsgetdirty #livingroom #tamandesawan #klang #malaysia #sorrynotsorry #yolo #handsome #worldpeace #nofilter #instaboy #ootd #imjustjokingthereisnoootd #sunnyday #latergonnawritemyblog #staytuned #iloveyouyouloveme #icantthinkofanythingelsealready" 

well...

thank you for reading all the hashtags if you did. lol

But in all seriousness, I don't think I will be updating my blog that often already.

Due to various reasons: 

1. It is awesome when reading back my older posts, but at the same time my eyes hurt (sometimes). I can't help myself but to feel how childish I was when writing. 

2. No time. Seriously, I don't think I will have the time to update my blog in the next few months, unless is to unleash my dissatisfaction. (which I will anyway, do it now on Twitter, talking to myself)

3. I don't want controversy. As you can tell, sometimes I like to post stuff that may be offensive to some people who makan chili dia rasa pedas. and I don't wish to have more controversy in this few years cos I will be focusing on my studies and more important stuffs in the next 2 years. I want it to be calm and peaceful. It is not the time for me to make some unnecessary and useless waves which does not benefit me. 

Now it is the time for my 2014 New Year's MegaPixel (saje want it to be fancy):

1. To maintain my CGPA.

2. To be good at what I am doing.

3. To learn to be sincere...

4. To be good at new musical instrument! Piano!! (I love music and I am glad that I manage to play some songs on piano now! Hooray for myself) 

5. To have lesser drama in university life (cos I would have no time for all the dramas, I have other more important stuff need to focus)

6. To have a new look. (guess that was a fail for me last year, but I think I have more fashion sense now la, DON'T LAUGH OK WTF)

7. To care less at the less important stuff (I am already good at this I think, but I guess I need it more, cos I am always surrounded by people who always care too much)

Looking back at my last year's resolution, I think I accomplished quite a lot and I am really proud of myself. 

1. Maintain my CGPA.
2. Know where am I and where I want to go.
3. Experience more new experience.
4. Develop new hobbies.
5. Have a new look.
6. Make new friends.
7. Improve my guitar skills. 

So I guess listing out my resolution really works on me.. 

and I hope I can accomplished them all this year.

K done. Signing off. 

See you soon, hopefully in the near future. 

Here is the picture of my control laboratory device.

Saje want to put a picture la... Don't want all words makes the post too dull. 

okay la okay la.. put something relevant:

Still don't get it.

=.=

Manly Man

Life would have been so much easier if we are treating it in a more manly way.

What is the point of thinking so much that you ended up putting yourself in a bad mood?

I know people who is so complicated than the toughest mathematical equation.  

I know people who is manlier than the manly man who don't give a fuck about the recent news people are trending. 

At the end of the day, it is a choice of which type of people you wanted your life to be. 

Stand in the balance point, and your life would have been so much easier.

5 songs of the day :

1. Life in colors - One Republic

2. All I want - Kodaline

3. Another love - Tom Odell

4. Let her go - The Passenger

5. Wings - Birdy

saje je want to update this blog. 

Laziness...

Time flies!! It is SEPTEMBER!!

OMG OMG OMG!

Next week I will have to go back to my university already! 

HOW DEPRESSING!

For some reason, I used to be very excited and desperate to go back to university after my long semester break. But I am not feeling the same way this time! 

I am not ready yet!!

I mean, I am still doing the same thing during this long break, i.e. do nothing. 

But this time the 'ohm' is not there!

I don't feel motivated!

:( :(

*suddenly turn into a bitch whining about my dissatisfaction

So I turn on my computer, log into my page, and start typing random shit hoping that I can realise how lazy I have been doing.

Devilish aH Wai : Look! You useless shit! Slack at home every semester break. Is this what you call a life?

Angelic aH Wai : *innocent face* No ~ I know exactly what I am doing. I just want a break ~ Break is for break not for keeping yourself busy ~
Devilish aH Wai : Wait, I should be the one encouraging 'laziness', right?
Angelic aH Wai : *strokes chin* yaaaaaaa lah. 

=.=''

Ok. All I'm trying to say is, I do realise how lazy I am.
So I hope the future me, in whatever, whenever and wherever circumstances, can feel guilty and be a little more motivated after reading the old posts in this diary blog.

Nonetheless, university 2nd year semester summer break is the only time left for me to indulge myself into this whole 'laziness' to the max. Cos I won't be this lazy anymore after that.
In fact, I CAN'T BE!
3rd year I will be having the 12 weeks internship, 4th year will be busy with FYP, and then BAM! Graduate.
Once graduated will be all the way to start the new chapter of my life! By that time, I SHALL PUT ALL THE EFFORT ON MY WORK MAN!! SHOW THE BOSS WHAT YOU MADE OF!! STEEL!!! AS HARD AS A STEEL! A CONDUCTOR! wtf
and then it is time to find a girlfriend you pathetic nerdy geek!!!!! GET A LIFE! JUST Kidding, still not that desperate lah.

*sob

- The end of this post -

10 songs of the moment:

1. Counting Stars - One Republic
2. Applause - Lady Gaga
3. We Can't Stop - Miley Cyrus
4. Tonight I'm Getting Over You - Carly Rae Jepsen 
5. Everything Has Changed - Taylor Swift ft. Ed Sheeran
6. Wasting All These Tears - Cassadee Pope
7. Roar - Katy Perry
8. Royals - Lorde
9. Can't Hold Us - Macklemore & Ryan Lewis
10. Young Love - Eli Lieb

This section has been gone for a loooooooong time. Just some songs I will get excited when my playlist started playing these songs.

;)

Back home !

HAA!
I am back to tiger land! *red carpet clap clap*
So I went to my sister's graduation ceremony in London. And I just came back last Friday.
Home sweet home.
Home is too cosy and comfy.
I have thousands of pictures and fresh memories in my head now.
I still don't feel like writing the story that happened in Europe yet. But I am definitely gonna write it someday. Coz I don't want to feel regret afterwards.
Meanwhile at this moment, I am just gonna be a jiak liao bee

, stay at home and do nothing.
Not again?!
I know right, three months of holiday for us as a university student is such a stupid idea right.
We don't need that long for rest. We are still young. About a month of break is already enough to recharge, and to forget all the nonsense that happened in uni. *wink*

Places I visited :

Oh and yeah, I think I'm not gonna on my FB so frequent anymore.
Coz FB always never fails to make me sick.
Self-control : FB IS A WITCH, YOU LITTLE PRINCE PLEASE STAY AWAY! *Bring along my little cousin Prince George and run away*
HAHAHA, I feel like I am living in my own world.
You call me a 22 years old guy?
Okay lah!
Poof !

A letter from a Keh Leh Feh

I don't normally blog when it's around Week 11 ~ Week 12 of my semester. Because I will be so damn busy until I feel that going toilet for a pee is a waste of time. But this is definitely an exception. Coz I'm SO gonna write about what had happened last week.

So the other day I received a FB inbox message from a guy I don't usually talk to. It's kinda a "Hi-Bye" friend in my faculty. I was kinda doubting what he wanted me to do. To vote for you in a FB contest you currently joining? Not again? But apparently it is not something I'm expecting. He asked me whether if I am interested to join a musical organised by a bunch of UPM students under the course "Play Production".
And the musical is Les Miserables.

LES MISERABLES.

And then I was like, ARE YOU EVEN F-ING SERIOUS?
FOR REAL?

The movie Les Miserables is the first musical movie I've watched and I LOVE EVERY PART OF IT. It's so perfectly done. The storyline was perfect, the casts were perfect, and the movie is a BOMB.
I literally cried like 5 times throughout the whole movie. (Of course lah, before the cinema's light on back, I still manage to wipe my tears, in case,... you know, it's quite embarrassing for a guy having a sobby eyes looking at your friends)

So the moment I got the offer from this guy, I was like, WHY NOT? LET'S DO IT!  老子没在怕。
Although it's just a very small role, but I have the instinct telling me not to miss this opportunity or I'll regret for life.
I did know that my tests were gonna held on the same week with the performance days. And I know this semester, my academic performance is everything to me. But I still take up the offer, for the sake of my... interest.

I did feel regret afterward. (like a few hours after I say YES)
Rehearsals are time-consuming. And I can barely squeeze out some of my time to read up some notes, which eventually didn't manage to keep them in my brain though.
What's worse is that when some of my tests were postponed to the week of the performance days, which turned out I have 4 tests and 1 presentation consecutively on the SAME DAMN WEEK.

This is definitely depressing.

No choice. It's something I've chosen to be. So the thing I can do was only to stay up late everyday to finish up the stack of notes.
I cannot afford to go in the examination hall with my brain empty.

It was quite a "roller coaster" week for me.
So many mixed feelings.
The seconds before my performing scene was so ganjiong, the moment after the whole show was so satisfying, and the time when I rush back to college to prepare for my exam was so pathetic. wtf

But everything paid it off lah.
I met a bunch of talented people in the musical theatre team. 

This is kinda the first time I joined something that is not organised by our faculty. And I realise there is a really big difference between the students in our faculty and the "main-camp" people. (we normally categorise people who are not from our faculty as the Main Campus' students)
Everyone there is so nice to me! I know lah I am a keh-leh-feh and a last-minute-join-in, but every single one of them didn't want me to feel that way. It's really cool lah.
They've been training for months and I was there for days only. Too bad I didn't get to know them so well. But if I do, I think they are definitely peoples that worth-to-be-friends-with.
And then I learnt a lot from production team also lah. How musical theatre is being carried out, how the lecturer train their casts, how to sing correctly and stuff like that. Lecturer even ask the casts to lie down on the stage and "make love" to the stage. This is something so abstract that AN ENGINEER WILL NOT GO THROUGH.

Curtain calls.
Today is the day that my result has been keyed in into my SMP.
I've prepared for the worst for my tests' result.
I know how much I did.
But guess what?
IT IS SURPRISINGLY SATISFYING!
AHHHHHH! THIS IS ONE OF THE BEST MOMENT EVER IN MY LIFE !
I JUST SHOT 2 BIRDS WITH A STONE. *punch fist to the air up high*

To be a part of the musical theatre is so much fun. 

TBH lah, I learnt a lot leh.
Learn a lot as in to be able to let go to do something that I want to do, to be able to bare the consequences of taking risk, etc etc lah.

P/S: HAHA.
I was smiling the whole time when I'm typing this post, this post is way too lengthy for a keh-leh-feh cast to write. But who cares? 老子没在怕

Your pineapple tart taste better than mine

So it's CNY. It's the day I've been waiting for a long long time.

And guess what, I couldn't believe my fourth semester is starting next week. Omg. 5 weeks just past so freaking fast. I can't even recall what I did for the entire 5 weeks of long break. I think I did leant how to play some new songs on guitar, finished reading 2 books of The Hunger Games trilogy, erm what else? Almost finish watching thousands of video clips from The Ellen Show YouTube channel? Argh.
Ya I know right.
Apparently my every semester break was a joke to my life. I literally just wasted so many hours doing nonsense. (Including spending time blogging? Ops.).

Nah, never mind. Because every time when I feel regret, I will find something else more meaningful to do afterward. (Which is to go back to university and start a happening, meaningful new life all over again). Argh. Why am I keep reminding myself that I have to go back to college soon. I know I have the "less right" to complain about it, compare to those whose university is located thousands kilometers away from their home sweet home, but I still hate going back to university la. This place is definitely not a place for me to make friends or enjoy life.

I live my life to the fullest only to spend time with family, on vacation, or shopping in a hypermarket. I'm quite a family guy right. LOL. And what is worse is that my whole CNY week is the week I have to mentally prepared for the new semester.

People says, motivation doesn't lasts. Neither does bathing. That's why we have to have it everyday. So be mentally prepared for new semester is pretty crucial to me, especially after knowing my damn teruk result.

Ok, it's new year. Which means I have the chance again to make another new year's resolution? Haha.  Ya, not to say I'm being greedy, I really hope I can perform better in the next academic semester. Fighting!

Oh ya, I will mostly abandon my blog for a while. Maybe it would be a long while. I really want my focus on academic only. I know it's gonna be a tough semester for me, A tough one.
NERDY MODE, ON.

Love you guys. ^^

A short semester break.

I am actually having a culture-shock right at this moment. By culture-shock, I mean, I'm not very used to the way I'm spending my time right now. I was just so hardworking last week and now I am, literally, doing nothing at home EVERY FREAKING DAY. I think I've made a used-to-be-very-promising-and-meaningful-holiday-plan. (wtf so long haha) But I still don't see this plan is working out.
Well, I guess I should list it out in my blog first, so that I can always remind myself again what to do to fill up my time.

A very rational holiday plan will do.
I have 5 weeks of semester break, and I just wasted a week, which leave me with only 4 weeks of holidays left.
Let's see, what comes to my mind I will just write it here. 

1. Finish reading The Hunger Games Trilogy.
To be frank, I actually hate to read books, like every kinds of book, textbook, exercise book, or novel, as long as it's a book. The last book I read was Twilight. wtf. Well, my interest towards a thing will be always a flash in the pan. So I actually bought these books because I think the movie is good. And since I bought it, no matter how, I have to force myself to read. HAHA, yalah, weird Ah Wai indeed. Eh, I have this uncle attitude also lah, don't waste lah, this 3 books cost me about a hundred bucks you know, must read them all only worth my money mah. lolol. Reading is not a bad activity tho.

 

I am reading...

 

2. Be a good boy.
I am a mama's boy, even until now. Well, I am proud to be, even I am already 21. I am so happy and blessed that I am the one be loved. So when next time people starting to be mean to me saying I am a mama's boy in a mean way, I will gonna admit it with a very "of course" attitude. This way doesn't work on me, bitch. lolol. Okay, wait. So what is this gonna do with my holiday plan? To be a good boy clean the house for CNY ! I am excited for CNY like everybody. But don't like to do spring cleaning. Normally I will just do whatever that is easy. This time also. HAHA. Oklah, at least I'm behaving as a good son. Not a jia liao bee. lolol.

3.Start preparing for my next semester?
I know everyone is gonna punch me REAL HARD right to my handsome face when saw this.
But wait. Part of it is because of my kiasu attitude. No doubt. But the main reason is because my CGPA is keep dropping every semester, and I really don't want this to continue.

Here's the thing, I am not really sure about it, but as far as I see, to score in public university can be really easy if we really put a little more effort into it. I always blame myself every end of semester for not doing my best. And I am tired of regretting anymore. Besides, I am just starting to know what direction I should go. So I definitely should put more effort academically.

I guess that's all. Well, at least all are achievable. And confirm better than slacking at home.
I'll start my meaningful holiday tomorrow !
Let's do it !!

*setting my alarm clock to 11.59am*

*yaoming face*
*I will still wake up at 2pm in the afternoon anyway*

lolololol

Busy meh?

Hello.
I guess you noticed the changes I made to this blog.
I'm bored with the old template so I decided to change it.
I've added :
1. YouTube video below my blog header : My selected music video playlist (around 5~6 songs), will try to change it every month if I manage to discover new and nice songs.
2. Twitter bar : Yes, I'm on Twitter now. Follow me.
3. Chat box : I put back my chat box. Hope this time will not have the same old problem again.
4. Blog list : My personal blog list. Introduce more blogs for me, I actually prefer to spend time reading blogs rather reading books. Which is not good.
5. Follower : Follow me on blogger.

Okay,
It's been a loooong loooong time. More than a month since my last update.

*True Story*

Not by purpose. But I have been busy like mad recently.
Okay this time I know what I'm busy about.
Proof :

Altera DE1 board with my Verilog program installed.
This thing wasted consumed my 2 weeks of life span. 

Of course not only this lah.
We had tests like every weeks. EVERY weeks. I mean it !
Reason : We took the test, we failed miserably, lecturers too soft hearted (which is good), give us second chance to re-test (which is very awkward, because we can't even do better the second time)

So, and I'm supposedly to be busy by now but I'm here typing blog post.
WHY BUSY? BECAUSE MY WHOLE SEMESTER IS LIKE A RELAY COMPETITION.
Final exam is at next week. And FINAL EXAM IS THE ONLY TIME to catch up with my marks.
I'm not sure whether is it only my course or other course also that busy. Tell me. Seriously.

Okay never mind.
At least I manage to survive 2012. Which is an achievement. *Survival Badge unlocked !! Punch fist to the air*

Random as usual

I don't know. It's fun joining activities but I don't like the burden when I am assigned to do some specific task that is fresh to me. Ya lah, I like new things but doesn't mean I like stuff that are so completely new to me and expect me to do it good. But anyway, I appreciate the trust people give it to me.
So this is the first time I become the emcee for an event. Not a big one though. However, to be one of the 60-people-dinner hosts is nerve-wracking !

Hmm, can you smell professional ? EHEM!! HAHA

It's was not a very well-done job, but overall I think me and my partner did quite okay lah. Eh, it's the first time lah bro and sis, give some compliment instead of criticism.

LOL someone can you just note me about my hairstyle before take my photo

So I can almost rest in peace now, another thing that is on my checklist is CHECKED.

Now what?

It's song sharing time !

Here come my 10 songs of the moment :

1. Skyfall - Adele (Very Adele-ish and pop)

2. The A Team - Ed Sheeran (Neglected artist with great voice) 

3. Red - Taylor Swift (Cool song, love her new album)

4. Hello - Karmin (Did I introduce this song before? Amy is the only rapper I like)

5. I Found You - The Wanted (The feeling of this song is really edgy !)

6. Want U Back - Cher Lloyd (Very powerful "Uhhh!" that I like it very much)

7. As Long As You Love Me - Justin Bieber (I can't believe I am actually introducing JB's song)

8. Diamonds - Rihanna (Love this song except when she is repeating "Shining bright like a diamond" with a weird voice)

9. Feel Again - OneRepublic (Band song, a very "band" song)

10. The Scientist - Glee version (It's just simply because of the storyline of Glee)

Apparently I stopped blogging for quite a long time, about 3 weeks to a month since my last post. Been quite busy lately. (always saying I am busy but I can't figure it out what I am busying about) But, but, but, SEMESTER BREAK is at next week ! So excited ! Okay, at least I can avoid myself from sticking around with my coursemates for a week. That is rather a happy thing for me.
Such a easily-satisfied-youngster wtf.

Belly Drum

After realising my big tummy is getting bigger day by day, and been pointed out by my roommate and friends who intruded into my room (they were saying my belly is out of shape, a very weird shape, that swell out unevenly, fml), and feeling guilty afterwards, so I finally make up my mind to be a sporty aH Wai from this sem onwards!
 My goal is simple, find some ways to make my tummy look smaller.
I should at least go for jogging twice or thrice every week. I don’t think this can slim down my beer belly. But I am sure it’s way better for me, instead of sitting down in front of lappy and stare at it for the whole day after dinner. Of course lah jogging makes me feel more refreshing afterwards.
I blame the hormones for making my belly grows. Damn it.

Speaking of sporty aH Wai, this sem aH Wai just turned into a new leaf. *imitating power ranger transform* Fuyoo ! I joined 音子and 扯铃, after realizing my university provides such a good opportunity for us to join all of these meaningful clubs. 音子 is a club for music sharing, where you can learn guitar/keyboard, for free, from students of this club, sort of a music sharing club (But I am more hoping there is a glee club in UPM, I would definitely be the first member *thrusting fist to the air).
Meanwhile扯铃 is basically Chinese Yoyo.

It’s not that easy as how I thought it would be. But it’s fun though.
I mean it’s really quite fun lah, I never tried it before, and it’s like a new thing, and you know I love everything that is new to me, so it’s fun.
This thing is energy consuming. My shirt, pants and underwear all soaked with my sweat after just played for like half an hour only. This is a sport lah guys, it is not even a toy for youngster. Someone should just put this in one of the new category games in Olympic.

So it’s exam week. EXAM WEEK wtf.  I can’t believe it’s already week 6 !! The 6th week, out of 14 weeks, half of the semester is almost gone !!  Hooray ! I know it’s fast, but everything is still quite eventful though. Very HAPPENING !

Tests are not easy. Stressful. But I think it’s good. There are competition going on around which make me can force myself to study. I need motivation. Those are my motivation.

I’m surrounded by flowers, be the flowers then.

My stress reliever. FB!

So I guess this is it.