Not Motivated. FML.

I still remember when I was in a book fair and holding this book titled "Idiot's Guide: Business Success in your 20s and 30s.
I flipped through some pages, and then my friend ask me if I will read it.
it is only RM8. I thought it is a good deal.
"Books will not expired".

dust-off.

and now.
this book still stay beside my bed.
I am lazy like this.
and it seems like it expire soon.

lol

Will this idea explode?

I like to create.
From creating a storyline for my comic book since I was small, to creating new content for my blog. (although the blog is dead lol)
and creating excuses for my client wtf

I am still excited when I saw a blank sheet of A4 paper. and a pencil.
I will start doodling all the way. so much fun.

till recently I get to know the latest hype where apparently people relieve their stress by colouring a colouring book.
The first time I saw the book in the bookstore I was like ''mehh... what is so secret about this garden" (the name of the book is secret garden or something like that)
and then I flip behind and look at the price.. whatttttttt? go and get a cheaper one at the kindergarten section! they have flowers and humming bird too.

(fun fact: even the feng shui sifu Lilian Too has published her own good luck fortune colouring book wtf check it out at the mid valley feng shui store!)

and then it got me thinking.. what for people willing to spend so much on something so simple where they can get it/do it themselves.

and how this hype started at the first place? colouring book only mah~~~ mehhhhhh!!

It's because of the chain reaction!!

but eventually a hype will only retain at its peak for only maximum of 2 to 3 years, based on my observation lah.
you can see from a lot of the examples too:

candy crush, angry birds, flappy birds?
and remember those days when we love to Q up for so long just for a cup of chatime?
even a lot of the cafe in taman botanic is closing down after the hype is not there anymore lolol. sorry being too specific lol.

where am I now? hahaha
my blog content is getting more all over the place.
fear not!

because I am gonna make a important announcement
I am gonna start a comic/drawing FB page soon!
which I have been planning to do it for sooooooooooooo long!!
one thing of course is because of the hype, and of course: I love to create.

so it has not been officially started yet but I have already drafted out a few ideas.
hopefully more to draft..

The content will be more on the life I am facing right now. More focus on the drawing and not too much on the wording.
I hope to make it to be something that is more relate-able to everyone as a worker working in a company, and for those who interested to see my life as an engineer. (chehh.....nama engineer glam jer, but work like cow and the pay like bullshit wtf lol)
which I find it interesting cos "engineers" is too mysterious for everyone.
The main stream media don't normally talk about this job and how the work life.

I hope I can post more often.
but it will be in only chinese lah cos I think that that is the only way I can express myself more straight to the point and easier for me too. @@''

will try to keep the FB page to be secret and hope not to let anyone know is me cos I wanted to keep myself to be more anonymous to the viewer so that I can post more of my real working life as an engineer so far...

I think it will be interesting right?


don't answer me, I don't care!! hahaha

hope when the page is officially out it will explode in several months.  XD




cheh!!
sweet dream or beautiful nightmare?~~~~


to make the blog more fancy:
here is a portrait of me, drawn by a waiter in Jonny Rocket.

kthxbye.

baka...

I still remember those days when I used to compete with my friend who will be the one who know the latest pop song that tops the billboard chart first. I will be constantly on Spotify listening for new potential songs that were added into the playlist (kiasu wtf).
and I carefully analyse and listen to the lyrics/flow of the song. if the song connects and has a good vibe, I will be the first to share it with them.
and when the song become super popular later I will feel super accomplished. *punch fist to the air

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Those days were just 3 months back!

At this moment of my life, working 9 to 9 wtf. come back home dinner (or supper or whatever you like to call it its already 9 wtf) finally able to loosen up the intensed-ambience that I have been already bearing it for  the last 10 hours. and feeling super tired. don't even feel like doing anything at that point of my life. not even want to think. just have my brain be empty.

and when I come to realise it will be 12am and I should be on my bed sleeping.

swiping FB looking at my friend posting his own cooks
somehow make me admire them so much because they can still have the time to develop new hobby while working.

work life is tough. tougher than how I used to imagine.
cos I used to be just surrounded by job that I am familiar with... mom is an accountant, dad working on business, relatives were all working on either business or administrator work. teachers, lecturers, logistic industry, retail shopping mall.. that's all.

as a fresh graduate that newly step into engineering industry, must have a tough heart to face it.

future can be bright. but bright is subjective.
it depends whether if you want it this way. 80% of the day is occupied with works. and some people in this industry are even crazier, work till midnight and come back on weekend to work.
pay is attractive of course. but does it really worth it?

maybe it is just me being too vulnerable? or still unable to settle down.

thanks to Haji holiday I get to have the time to make my plan and to think about what is my next step a little bit.

and then I came across this post when I was swiping FB.. which I find it should be something that I should ponder about.

Signs that shows that a man is not mature:

1 think and don't do
2 like to make excuses
3 bring home shitty emotion from work
4 too honest to talk about the past relationship
5 make too much promises that cannot be kept
6 express all kinda emotion too easily
7 easily trust the 'no's by woman
8 no savings

things guys shouldn't be doing: 

1 no vision and objective
2 wasting time
3 too dependent
4 not decisive
5 not planning for future
6 reject to any kind of advice
7 not ready to commit in a relationship

yes. 
hit me so hard in de face. 

haiz.

baka....

Beyond The Four Walls of the Lecture Room

So one day my friends were in my room again for chit chating session.
They usually will talk about something that does not interest me much. Then this guy started to talk about how when he was little he likes to dismantle his toy car and look at how the mechanical part works, and reassemble back after modification. All of the sudden the rest of my friends join in and say they were doing the same thing when they were still young. and the discussion went on and on...

wtf
Nope.

Don't look at me.

"I used to own a toy car of course!" 

I just don't like to dismantle the toy car and freak out when it does not move anymore after I reassemble it back.

TOY CARS ARE EXPENSIVE!

what I like to play with most of my McDonald's Disney toys is to create a story for them. Let all the character from different storyline to blend in into my imagination.
I draw decorative ~ plants! buildings! school buses! so that my story looks more real!
hahaha wtf

talk to this bunch of engineer friends makes me look extraordinary.
I have already knew it since the first day of my study in UPM taking up this course.

I prefer reading interesting stories, listening to new songs, talking crap with friends..
But being super realistic, I realise how important taking up useful degree major can get me a more secure career in the future.
That is the reason why until now I still don't feel regret taking up something that I don't particularly enjoy.

Career talk after career talk after career talk, I have learned how demanding this field is, and how competitive it is. and thanks to our faculty, that has created quite many opportunities for us to expose to these motivating events.

But somehow after four years of study, being a super 0% dummy about circuitry fundamental, Electrical and Electronic Engineering this course has done several knowledge injections to me and has already make me wanted to be more aware and concern about the happenings in this field.

Engineering in this campus, in my opinion is good.
They offers a lot of facilities that it is up to you to explore.
Student activities? yes.
Career opportunity? yes.
Overseas exchange opportunities? sure. just ask and apply!
Environment wise, ...?
Environment as in a lot of trees, lake side library, air conditioning in lecture room/hall, is superb.
but environment as in people in this faculty? hmmm.. it is up to you to decide. of course there are few of them in the circle are very competitive, which is good, cos all we want is to get influence by each other of this 'competitiveness' or 'positive mindset'.

other than that, being in the final year final semester in UPM, it makes me realise I have learned something so much else beyond this.
Here is to name a few:

1. Too much group photos

From first year till final year. lol
from photo after photo

group photo

group photo

 another group photo

and another 300 more group photos with coursemates. lol

2. The ultimate "scissors"/"peace" hand sign is the ultimate photo posing sign

 even when they are drunk. still remember the scissors. 

scissors

scissors

after scissors

3. Not knowing how to dress up ourselves
First world problem in engineering faculty worldwide? I suppose haha LOL
but taste getting better compare to first year la hahahaha (with guilt*)

4. Apparently Facebook is your working place
we are on there almost more than 12 hours a day.

we discuss assignment and report announcement there! No FB you will stuck in another class. Serious!

5. You take a long nap. like a really loooong nap..
"har kah wai?? you are not napping today? this is weird! I better buy lottery!"

6. You know your university is not so 'advance' when they proudly say that your residential college is the only hostel that has elevator. and people proudly cheer to this matter. "OHHHHH!! ELEVATOR!! AUMMMMM KOLEJ 10!"

7. You learn how to help people wipe their asses.
group work. tonnes of shit. everyone knows that.

8. You learn how to wipe one's shoes.
Apparently people freak out when I say 40% weightage for final exam is our score allocation standard. The rest are assignments and tests. and you will learn very well how to get the 60%.

just saying. lol

9. Night life? too luxurious for us! milo ais.. yes please.

10. We work on the very last minute. literally the last minute.
we are productive like that.
panda eyes everyone!

other than that,
what I've learnt the most is, my university life is quite awesome lah.

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side note:
trying to clear up all the draft post (about my university life) that I have saved/written since long time ago..
started my working life already and will blog about it soon..
new phase of my life..
where the people surrounding me (i.e. my colleagues) are all talking about mid-life crisis and stuff.


=.=''


ish..

2015 first post + Taiwan

2015 first post! yay!

finally lah 

has the time and effort to write blog. (blame more on the effort lol)

it's already February! woww 

blog post is so inconsistent 

thanks also to my hectic busy final year, 

but still feel very blessed anyway cos everything went quite smoothly at the moment.

sometimes we tend to complain a lot how rough we live our life but I think we need to appreciate the good moment also, be fair mahhhh *nod nod

anyway, all is well. #guanyinblessing

just came back from a 10-days vacation in Taiwan. 

not too bad i would say. but not as good as what i have expected it to be. 

thought of writing my trip as to make it more informative and useful for reference, but nah, i'm too old to write this stuff. leave it to others lol #noeffort #nomotivation 

anyway, okay lah, Taiwan is not that difficult to travel to provided if you know how to read and speak in Chinese. everything is quite convenient. 

do some research on the good food and cheap hostel. then for sure your trip will be within your budget and can experience the best out of it. 

RM3k for 10 days how about that? not that bad huh. 

lucky me and my another friend made some effort on research. duhhh... 

and be smart lah. plan ahead is one thing, but to have common sense is another important thing : the primary advice for every traveller who wish to travel to other country, especially without experience. 

starting from buying air ticket till airport check-in till back to Malaysia KLIA2, just.. be smart lah. wtf

okay lah some photos for "compulsory condition" for writing a sort-of vacation blog post. haha

rainbow village

naked ah pek

good packaging viagra (biscuit)

loud Chinese tourists in Ri Yue Tan (for a moment we thought we came to China wtf)

a dome made of paper

white peacocks

giant peacoc...k errr.. i mean...  *blush*

bumiputra who has a chinese name and can speak more fluent mandarin than me

sheep

1.3 deg Celcius! oh great, I'm only with my cotton shirt and a low-quality cardigan

 how I took picture of my friend

 how my friend took picture of me. 

awesome photographer

lantern wishes (let's be real wtf hahaha)

okay la I am getting more worse in writing a blog post haha an absolutely bad blog post. (compare to HKUST and Europe trip post what laaaaaaa now hahaha)

anway, happy 2015! 

THE POSITIVE ENERGY

So what prompted me to write a blog post on this unusual day?

choose one?

1) today is the unproductive Sunday and tomorrow is a public holiday (another soon-to-be-unproductive day wtf)
2) procrastinating my study time
3) fingertip too pain after practising guitar
4) feeling lonely

5) I left my G2 refill in the hostel and I have no blue ink pen to write my notes
6) feeling disappointed and helpless for not knowing how to deal with the reality that I got the JACKPOT for my final year project

the answer is.......

all of the above!!

OMG!

before starting my final year I have the visions all written in my calender book, saying that I need to be super ambitious and focus on my final year. 

I think I've written something like this: 

"YES YOU HANDSOME GUY, FINAL YEAR IS ALL ABOUT NOT TAKING UP UNNECESSARY RISKS. YOU KNOW YOU ARE DUMB, AND NOT AS EXCEL AS OTHER STUDENT, BUT STILL A HANDSOME PRINCE ^^V"  

my motivational quote, ambitious ya? wtf

jk lah.

but what I wanted was to 'peacefully' score all of the papers for the last 2 semester and graduate. 

but something is just not meant to be planned!! 

REALLY?!!

You don't choose the thug life, the thug life chooses you!!!!!

I still remember what I filled up for my title was those 'I think I can handle this' kinda title.

but..

I got 'selected' to do the best title ever. literally.

I bet no one ever wanted to choose that title even the top scorer, cos we all know it is going to be very hard.

but sometimes when you are afraid of something, it just comes back to you. 

ishhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...

but since rice already become porridge, 

must well just face it.

*sigh*

I know it will be super duper sipek super challenging.

dealing it for one year is no joke.

but ya.. 

the only thing I can do is to keep my head held high.

to have the spirit like Bruce Lee!

ATAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

and of course.. to do super well in this semester.. 

cos something is not meant to be planned!!!

BRING IT ON!!!!!

Punch card !

"Ehhh.. you finishing your study on next year June?" my mum came and ask me while I'm packing my stuff for my new semester.

"ahh.. Ya lah." 

wait

wait

wait WHAT?

I'm finishing my undergraduate course next year?!! I started cold sweating so much.

My palms were like Iron man except sweat was coming out instead of a very cool lighting beam. wtf

I still can't believe it! One more freaking year I will be started working in this cruel reality world! OH NOoooooOOOOoooOO! 

Ya lah ya lah, the above statement is totally a statement what a fresh grad would make. *roll eyes*

But I'm not trying to be hipster also lah, when I am genuinely si beh worry I would voice out. wtf 

Especially after I got the chance to expose myself to real working environment that is related to my field.

Not like any part-time work with no pressure, no responsibilities and money I was earning was so "easy". "Easy" as in don't need to pay bill, pay loan, pay gas, etc etc. NET INCOME I MEAN COME ON! lol

Also, people must be thinking, itu lah, tak pernah pergi luar tengok masa muda, skang baru risau. 

Not really also lah, I must deny that. I have the experiences working in a real office environment also, not only part time work very care-free type of environment. I have experiences working with real working bosses and bossy person also. lol fml

That is the reason why I am concious that me myself is not looking forward to end my university life so fast. *wipe tears*

Looking back at my previous blog posts, I have been a very diligent person to upload a "it's time to go back university" post every starting of a new semester.

One thing that is stupid about the university system is that they have this very long semester break for us to "rest". 3 freaking months is too long in my opinion.

But I felt like I have made full use of my long semester break in every semester. 

1st year : HKUST summer school

2nd year : Attended sister's graduation ceremony in London

3rd year : Industrial training

so no complain also. 

So instead of worrying so much, why not face it. 

This time my "it's time to go back university" post will be all about me myself to get ready for the real working environment!

One more year!!

I need to believe myself that one more year I would have to make my mindset very very clear.

Be super ambitious! And FOCUS! AND BELIEVE!

This new semester year is all about FOCUS! GETTING ORGANISED! 

and LOOK! 

WHAT A MOTIVATIONAL POST I HAVE CREATED.

*chehhh*

but ya lah. 

and of course to reduce going onto FB and YouTube so much.

and blogging.

and new movies.

and new reality shows.

and sleeping so much.

and taking a nap too long.

and to be consistent.

and to stop crapping so much un-nutritious topics with coursemates.

and to stay away from drama in real life.

and to stop being a third person.

and to start practising good healthy lifestyle.

and not sure if I can make it.

and still gonna try.

at least for the first month lah.

never try never know mah

and I am staying 7th floor in my new semester

and if the elevator not functioning then I have to sleep in the cafeteria.

and OMG STOP THE CRAPPPPP!!!!!!