2012 ~

When I was little, I used to make a wish every night before I close my eyes. Hugging pillows with warm and soft blanket, thinking the next day my wish will come true. Ehem, I guess I was quite a "fairy-tale" kid in the past, wasn't I? And please don't say you don't have a childhood past time.
Hmm, surprisingly, some wishes I made come true somehow.

Wishes and dreams push one to work harder. Making one to always believe in something. They are not that essential but I believe they are necessary in our life.
One who has dream works harder for life.
At least this is what I thought.

Well, as for now, my dreams, not sure when, but are achievable :
To be a backpacker. Have a month time travel to the places I wanted to go.
Europe countries with bread and coffee;
Aussie with kangaroos;
Japan with sakura and sushi.
Gosh~ tears. T__T

Own a DSLR and take beautiful pictures from these places.
Of course I need a DSLR if I am going to these places. Digital camera is way not enough for me. :P
Not sure how, but the interest of photography just developed inside me.
But is it only me or guys are born to love the camera and girls are born to love to be captured by the camera?  Hmm, at least my facebook highlights always give me the prove.


Every end of the year, I review back what I have done throughout the year.
I complain about it. Then I feel regret about it.
Yes yes yes, this year is still as sucky as last year. Or maybe suckier.
I pray hard and wish my 2012 starts with a brand new beginning. Smoother life. Happier.
AND I DON'T ASK FOR MORE.

And guess what? I have this baby to motivate me whenever I feel sucky.

Hell yeah !!

Happy New Year everyone !!

:D !!!!

Spinning Round and Round

Something I've learnt so far in here...
Everyone in my course is so damn emotional and negative...
They don't speak directly in front of you, but through the third parties...
They let you know their feeling through these people, with purposes...
Every word they wanted to show it to you shows sarcasm...
Analyse every words they give, and you will know the stories behind it...

Being in this group makes me so negative...
Even a really small matter can become so bad...
(I think I've talked about this in my previous post... Well, I guess I will write this again on my future post...)

I'm seriously facing an emotional roller-coaster situation now...
I used to be a very cheerful person... happy-go-lucky... nothing to worry...
But now, I'm trying so hard to be cheerful...
I don't usually write negative post on my blog, because I don't like bad memories...

This is the worst situation I've came across so far in my life...

I go home almost every week cause I don't like to be here...
But somehow I have to be patient...


It's good for me in some sense, as this will remind me to grow up a little...
Train me to face these challenges in this bad situation...


Being in this group is seriously NOT EASY...
You can't choose to be alone... because you can't survive here...
Your choice is just to choose which group you wanted to join...

So if you are me...
Are you brave enough to face it? Tough enough to bare it?

Kah Wai, here you go, FML again... :')

Problem? :)

Few problems I'm facing in the university that cannot be solved :

Staying in the college, taking shower become a challenge for me. Especially in the morning. The water at that time is freezing cold. I have the habit of taking shower in the morning. No choice, but to spend around half an hour in the bathroom, waiting for my courage to come, to jump in the water shower. COLD SEI NGO AHHHHHHH.

Forgotten to bring along the room key with you is another problem. Even the pantry and toilet are just beside my room. I lock my door everytime when I walk out of my room. It is always too late for me to realise I left my room key inside. Worse, when I just finish my shower, half naked with a tower hanging around my neck, hopelessly thinking what should I do and who should I find. I LEFT MY HANDPHONE INSIDE TOO.  AHHHH.....

15 minutes walking distance from my college to my faculty. Sounds like a short distance, but it is actually quite far away! Without fail, every time I will be sweating like mad when I reach the lecture hall. Even though I just WALK, not RUN. Worse, when you are informed that the lecture has been cancelled. I'M GONNA KILL THE LECTURER!

Music is everything to me. You guys know I'm those kinda person who like to sing out loud. When I sing, and I'm really into it, I literally INTO it. So here's another problem I'm facing. People find me irritating with this action. So sorry to annoy you with those songs you don't usually listen to. Even though I have a great voice. HAHAHAHA! 

So tell me, what's your problem now?
:DDDDDDD

Perfect :)

What is "confidence" mean to you?
Something I didn't even wanna bother about in my old days.
Until recent years, I find out that this thing is so damn important to me.
I look up to people that is confident. Even to those person who has "excessive" confident.
Where do they get the confidence from?


I am not well-trained to be a very confident person. 
I'm always lack of self-esteem. Don't believe in myself that I'm gonna achieve in something.
Though sometimes when I receive compliment from others, I'm not willing to accept it. 


I'm afraid when people ask me whether if I have any people I admired? (those girlfriend-boyfriend relationship)
I don't know how to answer them.
I think I used to have those "passion", but not now anymore.
Why no more? Reason? 
I think most probably because, first, I'm blessed to have lots of lots of love from my family, so I don't think there's necessary to find love from someone else.
Secondly, I'm not confident to start a relationship with someone.
If I don't love myself, how can I expect people to love me?


Seriously thanks to those people who step in my life and always ask me to be more confident.
Never give up in believing me. Billions of thanks. 
I'm brave enough to say that I'm a very fragile person (as a male, which is not supposedly to be fragile)
T____T


I have to become tougher! 
Give me some time to prove it.


I have this song just come at the right time.
I don't usually post lyric and video here... but this song motivates me.
Love yourself, because you are perfect.


Perfect
Made a wrong turn
Once or twice
Dug my way out
Blood and fire
Bad decisions
That's alright
Welcome to my silly life
Mistreated, misplaced, misunderstood
Miss "no way it's all good"
It didn't slow me down
Mistaken
Always second guessing
Underestimated
Look, I'm still around...

Pretty, pretty please
Don't you ever, ever feel
Like your less than
Less than perfect
Pretty, pretty please
If you ever, ever feel
Like your nothing
You are perfect to me

Y U NO!!

I must admit that I'm quite a person that will get emotional very easily.

Even on THIS small matter that eventually triggered my nerves!

What a guy... ARGH!!

This feeling sucks!

Yea~ Maybe I'm having PMS!

My social skills sucks! 

I do not know what way to talk and act so that can make everyone feel comfortable.

I'm just not good in twisting my words to make it sounds better.

If I keep facing this problem... eventually I will not get any "University Life" throughout the 4 years in here.

GoDai lah! Tired of this feeling!  I cant concentrate on anything now even my Test 2 is coming up in few days from now. 

YES LAH YES LAH! I JUST CAN'T STAND WITH THOSE TYPICAL CHINESE GUY WITH MAXIMUM CONFIDENCE AND DON'T GIVE CONTRIBUTION TO ANYTHING OTHER THAN ENTERTAINING YOUR BUNCH OF PEOPLES IN YOUR OWN GROUP. YOU KNOW YOURSELF AND YOU DON'T NEED ME TO POINT IT OUT.

GRRRR!!

FML!

Book with knowledges

Facebook has been the medium for me through ups and downs since I registered an account. I seldom update my facebook status, but I definitely often sign in to facebook for stories from my "friends". Sometimes their stories made my days.

I believe most of your friends grow up in almost similar environment just like you. Some of them are same age with you, went to the same school with you, and was your besties in the past. But at a time when you start looking them back on facebook, you will realise that they had grown up so much.

Apparently, I envy about most of my friend's current life most of the time.

This post is not about facebook for me, but something that I've learned from my friends through facebook. There are statements that made by my friend inspires me. I truly believe those statements were made by themselves and not copy from other sources. (Before the existence of the popular page "Book of Quotes" on facebook)
Some of the statement that that I find it very meaningful:

1. When people need you they will remember you but when they don't need you...you are invisible to them.
2. When challenge finds you don't ask "Why me?" Instead say "Why not."
3. If you can't be a pencil to write any one's HAPPINESS, then try at least to be a nice rubber to erase everyone's SORROW.
4. You will never find what you are looking for in love, if you don't love yourself.
5. I believe the social environment forces one's negative characteristics ; I am not born sarcastic and mean, we just act accordingly to prevent getting hurt by anyone.
6. If people are trying to bring you DOWN, it only means that you are ABOVE them.

Sorry I didn't give a credit to you guys. I'm sure you won't mind when you read this. There are more statements that inspires me. These are the statements that motivate me.

I do jealous and envy about my friend's life, but it is always better to live our own life in our own way. Making life less miserable, always appreciate what we have. Look forward and do not ever regret.

Hmm... philosophy ya? :P

So what is facebook to you?

The Coffee Bean of Việt Nam

I love to travel. 

I went to a few places with my family in this few years. 

This time - Vietnam (Ho Chi Minh City).

 From Kuala Lumpur to Ho Chi Minh, it took around 1 hour 30 minutes flight only.

Mekong Delta

Vietnam is a developing country like Malaysia. As one of the country in the South East Asia, the weather in Ho Chi Minh is just as hot as in Klang.

First impression of Vietnam - Motorcyclists everywhere on the road, female motorcyclists as the majority. Motorcycle is the most used transportation by the Vietnamese as the price of petrol and the price of car is high. It's pretty hard to be a safe pedestrian here, unless you are skillful enough to cross the road. If not, do not take the risk! 

There are always something to represent a country. In Malaysia, we have corruption, ISA, bad attitude Nasi Lemak, Bah Kut Teh, Laksa and more. No doubt, in Vietnam, their Vietnam-style coffee and beef noodles are their signature food. My family and I can't take beef due to our religion belief so we ate chicken noodles instead of beef noodles. 

 

Trying to eat the coffee grounds

We went to the Cu Chi tunnel to experience the web-like tunnels system of more than 200km in length which used to be the shelters of guerrillas during the war against American troops in Vietnam. They made these tunnels because they thought American troops were big in size and only Vietnamese can fit into the tunnel and so American couldn't find them during the war. How smart? Read back our Malaysian history, those "Pahlawan" were only busy fighting for position, even now. I only dig into the 4m-length tunnel. Hot and smelly. 

Shoot!

Inside the tunnel

Digging into the tunnel

We also went to some other places like Mekong river, war museum, the Red Cathedral, old post office, and Ben Thanh market. Yeah, "ben dan" market. Merchants there are scary! They can grab your hand and shout to you in Vietnamese language asking you to buy their stuff whenever you walk pass their store. Things there are cheap though. 

War Museum

Thien Hau Temple

Pose! HAHA! Mekong river

Lunch

Vietnam lady with my mum

Vietnam Water Puppet

It was quite a experience in Vietnam. 

Yeah!

Military Airplane