2012 ~

When I was little, I used to make a wish every night before I close my eyes. Hugging pillows with warm and soft blanket, thinking the next day my wish will come true. Ehem, I guess I was quite a "fairy-tale" kid in the past, wasn't I? And please don't say you don't have a childhood past time.
Hmm, surprisingly, some wishes I made come true somehow.

Wishes and dreams push one to work harder. Making one to always believe in something. They are not that essential but I believe they are necessary in our life.
One who has dream works harder for life.
At least this is what I thought.

Well, as for now, my dreams, not sure when, but are achievable :
To be a backpacker. Have a month time travel to the places I wanted to go.
Europe countries with bread and coffee;
Aussie with kangaroos;
Japan with sakura and sushi.
Gosh~ tears. T__T

Own a DSLR and take beautiful pictures from these places.
Of course I need a DSLR if I am going to these places. Digital camera is way not enough for me. :P
Not sure how, but the interest of photography just developed inside me.
But is it only me or guys are born to love the camera and girls are born to love to be captured by the camera?  Hmm, at least my facebook highlights always give me the prove.


Every end of the year, I review back what I have done throughout the year.
I complain about it. Then I feel regret about it.
Yes yes yes, this year is still as sucky as last year. Or maybe suckier.
I pray hard and wish my 2012 starts with a brand new beginning. Smoother life. Happier.
AND I DON'T ASK FOR MORE.

And guess what? I have this baby to motivate me whenever I feel sucky.

Hell yeah !!

Happy New Year everyone !!

:D !!!!

Spinning Round and Round

Something I've learnt so far in here...
Everyone in my course is so damn emotional and negative...
They don't speak directly in front of you, but through the third parties...
They let you know their feeling through these people, with purposes...
Every word they wanted to show it to you shows sarcasm...
Analyse every words they give, and you will know the stories behind it...

Being in this group makes me so negative...
Even a really small matter can become so bad...
(I think I've talked about this in my previous post... Well, I guess I will write this again on my future post...)

I'm seriously facing an emotional roller-coaster situation now...
I used to be a very cheerful person... happy-go-lucky... nothing to worry...
But now, I'm trying so hard to be cheerful...
I don't usually write negative post on my blog, because I don't like bad memories...

This is the worst situation I've came across so far in my life...

I go home almost every week cause I don't like to be here...
But somehow I have to be patient...


It's good for me in some sense, as this will remind me to grow up a little...
Train me to face these challenges in this bad situation...


Being in this group is seriously NOT EASY...
You can't choose to be alone... because you can't survive here...
Your choice is just to choose which group you wanted to join...

So if you are me...
Are you brave enough to face it? Tough enough to bare it?

Kah Wai, here you go, FML again... :')

Problem? :)

Few problems I'm facing in the university that cannot be solved :

Staying in the college, taking shower become a challenge for me. Especially in the morning. The water at that time is freezing cold. I have the habit of taking shower in the morning. No choice, but to spend around half an hour in the bathroom, waiting for my courage to come, to jump in the water shower. COLD SEI NGO AHHHHHHH.

Forgotten to bring along the room key with you is another problem. Even the pantry and toilet are just beside my room. I lock my door everytime when I walk out of my room. It is always too late for me to realise I left my room key inside. Worse, when I just finish my shower, half naked with a tower hanging around my neck, hopelessly thinking what should I do and who should I find. I LEFT MY HANDPHONE INSIDE TOO.  AHHHH.....

15 minutes walking distance from my college to my faculty. Sounds like a short distance, but it is actually quite far away! Without fail, every time I will be sweating like mad when I reach the lecture hall. Even though I just WALK, not RUN. Worse, when you are informed that the lecture has been cancelled. I'M GONNA KILL THE LECTURER!

Music is everything to me. You guys know I'm those kinda person who like to sing out loud. When I sing, and I'm really into it, I literally INTO it. So here's another problem I'm facing. People find me irritating with this action. So sorry to annoy you with those songs you don't usually listen to. Even though I have a great voice. HAHAHAHA! 

So tell me, what's your problem now?
:DDDDDDD

Perfect :)

What is "confidence" mean to you?
Something I didn't even wanna bother about in my old days.
Until recent years, I find out that this thing is so damn important to me.
I look up to people that is confident. Even to those person who has "excessive" confident.
Where do they get the confidence from?


I am not well-trained to be a very confident person. 
I'm always lack of self-esteem. Don't believe in myself that I'm gonna achieve in something.
Though sometimes when I receive compliment from others, I'm not willing to accept it. 


I'm afraid when people ask me whether if I have any people I admired? (those girlfriend-boyfriend relationship)
I don't know how to answer them.
I think I used to have those "passion", but not now anymore.
Why no more? Reason? 
I think most probably because, first, I'm blessed to have lots of lots of love from my family, so I don't think there's necessary to find love from someone else.
Secondly, I'm not confident to start a relationship with someone.
If I don't love myself, how can I expect people to love me?


Seriously thanks to those people who step in my life and always ask me to be more confident.
Never give up in believing me. Billions of thanks. 
I'm brave enough to say that I'm a very fragile person (as a male, which is not supposedly to be fragile)
T____T


I have to become tougher! 
Give me some time to prove it.


I have this song just come at the right time.
I don't usually post lyric and video here... but this song motivates me.
Love yourself, because you are perfect.


Perfect
Made a wrong turn
Once or twice
Dug my way out
Blood and fire
Bad decisions
That's alright
Welcome to my silly life
Mistreated, misplaced, misunderstood
Miss "no way it's all good"
It didn't slow me down
Mistaken
Always second guessing
Underestimated
Look, I'm still around...

Pretty, pretty please
Don't you ever, ever feel
Like your less than
Less than perfect
Pretty, pretty please
If you ever, ever feel
Like your nothing
You are perfect to me

Y U NO!!

I must admit that I'm quite a person that will get emotional very easily.

Even on THIS small matter that eventually triggered my nerves!

What a guy... ARGH!!

This feeling sucks!

Yea~ Maybe I'm having PMS!

My social skills sucks! 

I do not know what way to talk and act so that can make everyone feel comfortable.

I'm just not good in twisting my words to make it sounds better.

If I keep facing this problem... eventually I will not get any "University Life" throughout the 4 years in here.

GoDai lah! Tired of this feeling!  I cant concentrate on anything now even my Test 2 is coming up in few days from now. 

YES LAH YES LAH! I JUST CAN'T STAND WITH THOSE TYPICAL CHINESE GUY WITH MAXIMUM CONFIDENCE AND DON'T GIVE CONTRIBUTION TO ANYTHING OTHER THAN ENTERTAINING YOUR BUNCH OF PEOPLES IN YOUR OWN GROUP. YOU KNOW YOURSELF AND YOU DON'T NEED ME TO POINT IT OUT.

GRRRR!!

FML!

Book with knowledges

Facebook has been the medium for me through ups and downs since I registered an account. I seldom update my facebook status, but I definitely often sign in to facebook for stories from my "friends". Sometimes their stories made my days.

I believe most of your friends grow up in almost similar environment just like you. Some of them are same age with you, went to the same school with you, and was your besties in the past. But at a time when you start looking them back on facebook, you will realise that they had grown up so much.

Apparently, I envy about most of my friend's current life most of the time.

This post is not about facebook for me, but something that I've learned from my friends through facebook. There are statements that made by my friend inspires me. I truly believe those statements were made by themselves and not copy from other sources. (Before the existence of the popular page "Book of Quotes" on facebook)
Some of the statement that that I find it very meaningful:

1. When people need you they will remember you but when they don't need you...you are invisible to them.
2. When challenge finds you don't ask "Why me?" Instead say "Why not."
3. If you can't be a pencil to write any one's HAPPINESS, then try at least to be a nice rubber to erase everyone's SORROW.
4. You will never find what you are looking for in love, if you don't love yourself.
5. I believe the social environment forces one's negative characteristics ; I am not born sarcastic and mean, we just act accordingly to prevent getting hurt by anyone.
6. If people are trying to bring you DOWN, it only means that you are ABOVE them.

Sorry I didn't give a credit to you guys. I'm sure you won't mind when you read this. There are more statements that inspires me. These are the statements that motivate me.

I do jealous and envy about my friend's life, but it is always better to live our own life in our own way. Making life less miserable, always appreciate what we have. Look forward and do not ever regret.

Hmm... philosophy ya? :P

So what is facebook to you?

The Coffee Bean of Việt Nam

I love to travel. 

I went to a few places with my family in this few years. 

This time - Vietnam (Ho Chi Minh City).

 From Kuala Lumpur to Ho Chi Minh, it took around 1 hour 30 minutes flight only.

Mekong Delta

Vietnam is a developing country like Malaysia. As one of the country in the South East Asia, the weather in Ho Chi Minh is just as hot as in Klang.

First impression of Vietnam - Motorcyclists everywhere on the road, female motorcyclists as the majority. Motorcycle is the most used transportation by the Vietnamese as the price of petrol and the price of car is high. It's pretty hard to be a safe pedestrian here, unless you are skillful enough to cross the road. If not, do not take the risk! 

There are always something to represent a country. In Malaysia, we have corruption, ISA, bad attitude Nasi Lemak, Bah Kut Teh, Laksa and more. No doubt, in Vietnam, their Vietnam-style coffee and beef noodles are their signature food. My family and I can't take beef due to our religion belief so we ate chicken noodles instead of beef noodles. 

 

Trying to eat the coffee grounds

We went to the Cu Chi tunnel to experience the web-like tunnels system of more than 200km in length which used to be the shelters of guerrillas during the war against American troops in Vietnam. They made these tunnels because they thought American troops were big in size and only Vietnamese can fit into the tunnel and so American couldn't find them during the war. How smart? Read back our Malaysian history, those "Pahlawan" were only busy fighting for position, even now. I only dig into the 4m-length tunnel. Hot and smelly. 

Shoot!

Inside the tunnel

Digging into the tunnel

We also went to some other places like Mekong river, war museum, the Red Cathedral, old post office, and Ben Thanh market. Yeah, "ben dan" market. Merchants there are scary! They can grab your hand and shout to you in Vietnamese language asking you to buy their stuff whenever you walk pass their store. Things there are cheap though. 

War Museum

Thien Hau Temple

Pose! HAHA! Mekong river

Lunch

Vietnam lady with my mum

Vietnam Water Puppet

It was quite a experience in Vietnam. 

Yeah!

Military Airplane

Malaysia University of Putra - The Beginning

It's has been more than a month in Universiti Putra Malaysia.

Gift from Faculty of Engineering

I was quite busy involving myself in many activities, until recently.
Lot of things happened. No idea where to start.
Let's see...

1. Electrical and Electronic Engineering Course Night
Course Night is sort of a tradition in UPM. Every course will be doing a Course Night where all the students of that course are invited and gathered for a dinner. Students from the 1st year to the 4th year. Particularly, for Chinese only. We as the 1st year junior were asked to perform during this course night on stage for 1 hour. No doubt, training for almost 4 hours everyday, starts from that day we were given this task until the night before the course night. More than 2 weeks for our preparation. In a good way, we as course mates get to know each other better. But, quarrels did happened during the last few days before we perform. Groups with different attitude of people are formed among us. It's sad, yet predicted.

E&E Course Night 

Hmm.. something that is worth to mention is that I get to play guitar (with my novice-level guitar skill) and sing a list of songs with my other course mate on stage. That is really an amazing experience. First time performing with own guitar playing on stage - CHECKED! Hope there's is more FIRST TIME to come before I graduate.



 

Me and my friend with guitar pose

2. The 10th College

My bed

The 10th College is the college for Engineer-to-be students and Architect-to-be students. I'm staying on the 4th  floor. The room is considered good. The best thing about this college is that the engineering faculty is just 10~15 minutes walk from the college.

White rice served with soy sauce chicken (sucks!)

Food here sucks, and so, with my bunch of picky-mouth friends, they found out the way to order better food delivery from outside of the campus to our college.
Cheap, efficient, delicious.

Faculty of Engineering

3. Faculty of Engineering
As I mentioned before, Electrical and Electronic Engineering was not my choice earlier. Anyway, I'm getting more comfortable studying this course now. Decision made and I have to look ahead for more things to come. Maybe I'm really interested in this course, because I still don't find any difficulties in accepting the things I learned during lecture. Well, so far so good. What have we learned so far? Electrical and Electronic Principles, Computer Programming, Engineering Mathematics, and some other not-related-to-this-course subjects. More to come : Semiconductors, Electrical Circuits, Control Circuit, etc.

4. First Test in University

Faculty of Engineering

All of the form 6 students are trained for 13 years to the system where we have to only focus in our main public examination at the end of the study year only. The university academic valuation becomes a bit not so familiar to us. First test carries 20% of the whole CGPA of the course. It is important. This test is called as 'test' but it is not a 'test' for me at all. I can feel the competition surrounding in my class because everyone of them is an academic-excellent student. This is definitely stressful for me. The test is over and I know I did my best. Finger-cross for satisfying result.

5. Friends

I'm a person who is very hard to adapt to a new environment. I always envy those people who can speaks and be friend with other very well even in a short time. I do have a gang (not-so-friend-gang, as for now) to hang around in UPM. But I'm still looking forward to make more friends in here.


Yarh! That's my new life in Universiti Putra Malaysia so far.

I did this to my friends every time I walk into the lecture class. HAHA!

Goodbye!

Everyone is getting geared up for coming new university life.
I'm gonna miss you guys!
Take care everyone!
:')

Music . Life

I hardly listen to underground music because I can't understand what message they trying to deliver. The rhythm, melody and lyric sometime just doesn't suit me. I listen to contemporary-pop songs that sung by well-known international singer. Some people may think that those songs are merely made for earnings but I still enjoy that. I'm not a musician anyway.

Most of the songs in my playlist are songs that covered by the Glee casts.

Glee isn't just a musical-comedy drama. This 1-hour TV series input a lot of inspirational messages to the viewers, and sometime the songs and choreographs are just so entertaining. If you have not watch Glee before, please start watching now, because they are amazing. :D

Some other songs I'm listening are introduced by the YouTube singers. YouTube is definitely a good pathway for a street-walker to become a celebrity. Some really-talented people just SHINE on YouTube where they upload their cover song videos and show off their stunning voices to us besides earning some pocket money by persuading people to support them by buying their songs on iTunes. YouTubers like Sam Tsui, Christina Grimmie, Maddi Jane, Jason Chen, Gerald Ko, etc are really talented singer. Check them out on YouTube!

There is always a song to represent ourselves at a certain moment.

Some songs capture our memories. And when we listen back to the older songs, a lot of memories just pops out in our mind. So which song appear in your mind now?

Here are my 10-songs-at-this-moment :

1. Firework - Katy Perry
2. Born This Way - Lady Gaga
3. Grenade - Bruno Mars
4. Rolling In The Deep - Adele
5. Someone Like You - Adele
6. Hey, Soul Sister - Train
7. Best Thing I Never Had - Beyonce
8. Marry You - Bruno Mars
9. Animal - Neon Trees
10. Jar of Heart - Christina Perri

I really love listening to songs and I can't wait for my next 10-songs-at-this-moment. :D

9 things I did in 9 months

9 months ain't a short duration. A lot of things can change during this period. A girl can even deliver a baby and become a mother during this interval of time!

Hmm.. just to review back what have I done. I'm actually struggle a lot when looking back what I did in this almost 9 months of time because I spent most of my time slacking at home playing nonsence-no-benefit games. (Angry Birds which I passed all the levels, Ragnarok Online with characters of high levels, etc)

From the top, here it goes :

1. Slacking at home.

This was initially not in my plan at all for my entire 9-months holiday. I started planning some stuff during the first month thinking what should I do during the holiday. Thinking of something that can fill up my days besides gaining some knowledge. But who knows I'm actually spending most of my time sleeping and watching TV at home. Ah, such a loser. I hope when I read back this post in the future I will still feel guilty and don't ever do this again during my holiday!

2. Worked as part-timer in Popular Bookstore.

I spent only 3.5 months working part time. I'm actually expecting to see and learn more stuff from them but ended up I'm actually learning not much. Environment is still like school-time. Colleagues are like your classmates. They are not ''dangerous'' enough for me which I find it not good because I can't learn all the ''soft skills'' that a working person suppose to have. Most probably because they are still young, not much working experiences. But then, working there, still fun.

3. Made new friends.

Something that I find so good for me. I always feel so thankful when I have chances to make new friends. Really appreciate it.

4. Got offers from universities.

Tertiary education is a ''must'' for the people nowadays. I'm still quite confused when I heard people advising their juniors to stop pursuing their education if they wanna become a boss in future. I think this concept doesn't apply in this generation now!

5. Did an embarrassing stuff in front of ex-classmates.

I feel like singing Teenage Dream :"Don't ever look back, don't ever look back! "

6. Learn how to play a guitar.

Music is so important in my life. Did you ever cry before after you listened to a song? No, I didn't. But still, music always never fail to release my tension and speaks out my emotions. Learning how to play a guitar from YouTube is not difficult. I'm now pretty confident to say that I can play a guitar now. :D

7. Learn how to bake.

Not a true statement. Made egg tarts and pandan cake with sister. Get to know something new : to bake is easy, to bake nicely, not so easy!

8. Re-Blog.

Blogging is fun. Especially when people say something good and giving support about your blog. I'm damn surprised when I met my ex-schoolmate saying that I did a good job writing funny posts on my blog. That's really gave me a lot of motivation to keep blogging. I stopped for almost a year+. Reading back my old posts is so entertaining for me. Blogging can keep and share my thoughts at that moment. And I have decided to start back my blog. Hope I will maintain it.. HAHA!

9. Grown up.

Read back my older posts make me feel I'm so childish at that time. Everything changes when we grow older. I believe I had grown up so much during this 9 months of break. Experiences I gained, worth it. HOHOHOHO!

In a Nutshell..

Has our government realise the existence of STPM students?

I don't think so...

Advantages are all given to Matriculation students. When I say ALL, I mean ALL!! They have the quota rule that majority of the public university students are for Matriculation students. Extra vacant seats? Ok lah ok lah~ Give to STPM students lah! Now this is what happen during the enrolment selection of public universities. And yet we felt so thankful, eyes filled with tears of joy, jump up with happiness, etc etc when we get the offer from them even though is not the course we want..!!

What's next? We spent 1.5 years studying all the STPM syllabus and yet the exam is so damn hard! What's next? 5 months of waiting before we start our form 6 life and 9 months of waiting only can enter public university.. we spent almost 15 months just to wait! How stupiak our government policy!

I got Electric and Electronic Engineering in Universiti Putra Malaysia. This is my 6th choice. 2 weeks away before enter university. Don't really have much special feeling. Maybe because this is not the course I really want.

But still, at this point, I'm not regret taking STPM. I believe every STPM students have the same thought as me too! Hope all my fella STPM friends enjoy their university life, because we deserve it! :D *RAISE YOUR GLASS STPM-ER*