It is already Week 10!
I am damn free right now! This is so unusual and I am so freaking out! Cos normally around this time I would be busy as hell. As like, to pang sai also no time lah. But this time I can still sit in front of my laptop, lay back and type nonsense and plan for shopping, check for movie schedule, non-stop Ellen's YouTube videos marathon and stuff like that. *not to forget a daily-3hours-FB-scroll
Not sure if I should feel happy or worry.
No test? NO. We gonna have a very intense Test 2 in the coming next two weeks.
No assignment? NO. We have a lot of assignments. Like, a lot 'a lot', not little 'a lot'.
But why am I still acting so chill!
Cos normally we do things in the last minutes!!
I am so used to it already. Not like how I will react when I was in Form 5/ Form 6 lah.
I am already in my third year in my university. Those innocent moment has gone by now.
As for this moment, I need a certain dose of adrenaline rush in order for me to get things done.
Even studying now feel like it is too early.
SLURP!
Slash slash.Lately me and my coursemates was talking about our future career and stuff like that, in a noodle stall.
He talked about his experience as an intern in the company of my field. And I am starting to feel motivated after listening to him. (though he was just an intern, was doing job that an intern would do)
I have always been positive about my future working path. I mean, after taking up this course, I have been exposed to various of positive reviews about my "future job". From my lecturers, from my cousins, from my friends' friends, from my seniors, from my dad's customers, from my auntie's sibling's cousin's friends.
Last time I used to always blame myself for taking up course that I don't like. But, now looking back at that time, I was being too naive to think it that way.
Advice is the key. We should always listen to advice. Not just for the sake of listening to it, but to think about why people wanted to say it to you. They tell the story for a reason.
Learn. Now learn to accept advice. Not just always blindly hold on to your own principles in life that you think you are always right. Cos we are human, we are NOT always right. We are still young, the chances of getting things wrong is high. We can have our vision, but not to blindly set a goal.
And I'm glad I listened to advice.
Right now I am still LEARNING to accept ADVICE.
which I think is pretty important.
I am in my third year as an engineering student in UPM already. Still slowly growing up.
I earned this spot in UPM, then I should act like I worth it.
and now it's time to tell everyone that I have no regret, from the deep of my heart.
Because I am always truthful to myself.
There is no use of lying to myself anymore, cos the most pathetic thing that shouldn't happen is to lie to yourself.
Things change, so I don't hope for more. Cos I scare I can't handle the pain once I felt.
I can't promise I will be turns out to be very successful in the future, but at least something has brighten me up a little bit. Bit by bit, by now, slowly. Positively.
*P/S: to the future me, do not feel ashamed when reading this post. Cos everyone grows up. This is just a stage where I am still discovering out myself. It is a transition state that everyone will go through. Some people grow up faster, some people like me, are slower. But it is better than none. At least right now I am grateful and happy where I am, who I am.
*and at least right now, I see no good reason to act like my age.
BWAHAHAHAHA!
