2012 ~

When I was little, I used to make a wish every night before I close my eyes. Hugging pillows with warm and soft blanket, thinking the next day my wish will come true. Ehem, I guess I was quite a "fairy-tale" kid in the past, wasn't I? And please don't say you don't have a childhood past time.
Hmm, surprisingly, some wishes I made come true somehow.

Wishes and dreams push one to work harder. Making one to always believe in something. They are not that essential but I believe they are necessary in our life.
One who has dream works harder for life.
At least this is what I thought.

Well, as for now, my dreams, not sure when, but are achievable :
To be a backpacker. Have a month time travel to the places I wanted to go.
Europe countries with bread and coffee;
Aussie with kangaroos;
Japan with sakura and sushi.
Gosh~ tears. T__T

Own a DSLR and take beautiful pictures from these places.
Of course I need a DSLR if I am going to these places. Digital camera is way not enough for me. :P
Not sure how, but the interest of photography just developed inside me.
But is it only me or guys are born to love the camera and girls are born to love to be captured by the camera?  Hmm, at least my facebook highlights always give me the prove.


Every end of the year, I review back what I have done throughout the year.
I complain about it. Then I feel regret about it.
Yes yes yes, this year is still as sucky as last year. Or maybe suckier.
I pray hard and wish my 2012 starts with a brand new beginning. Smoother life. Happier.
AND I DON'T ASK FOR MORE.

And guess what? I have this baby to motivate me whenever I feel sucky.

Hell yeah !!

Happy New Year everyone !!

:D !!!!

Spinning Round and Round

Something I've learnt so far in here...
Everyone in my course is so damn emotional and negative...
They don't speak directly in front of you, but through the third parties...
They let you know their feeling through these people, with purposes...
Every word they wanted to show it to you shows sarcasm...
Analyse every words they give, and you will know the stories behind it...

Being in this group makes me so negative...
Even a really small matter can become so bad...
(I think I've talked about this in my previous post... Well, I guess I will write this again on my future post...)

I'm seriously facing an emotional roller-coaster situation now...
I used to be a very cheerful person... happy-go-lucky... nothing to worry...
But now, I'm trying so hard to be cheerful...
I don't usually write negative post on my blog, because I don't like bad memories...

This is the worst situation I've came across so far in my life...

I go home almost every week cause I don't like to be here...
But somehow I have to be patient...


It's good for me in some sense, as this will remind me to grow up a little...
Train me to face these challenges in this bad situation...


Being in this group is seriously NOT EASY...
You can't choose to be alone... because you can't survive here...
Your choice is just to choose which group you wanted to join...

So if you are me...
Are you brave enough to face it? Tough enough to bare it?

Kah Wai, here you go, FML again... :')

Problem? :)

Few problems I'm facing in the university that cannot be solved :

Staying in the college, taking shower become a challenge for me. Especially in the morning. The water at that time is freezing cold. I have the habit of taking shower in the morning. No choice, but to spend around half an hour in the bathroom, waiting for my courage to come, to jump in the water shower. COLD SEI NGO AHHHHHHH.

Forgotten to bring along the room key with you is another problem. Even the pantry and toilet are just beside my room. I lock my door everytime when I walk out of my room. It is always too late for me to realise I left my room key inside. Worse, when I just finish my shower, half naked with a tower hanging around my neck, hopelessly thinking what should I do and who should I find. I LEFT MY HANDPHONE INSIDE TOO.  AHHHH.....

15 minutes walking distance from my college to my faculty. Sounds like a short distance, but it is actually quite far away! Without fail, every time I will be sweating like mad when I reach the lecture hall. Even though I just WALK, not RUN. Worse, when you are informed that the lecture has been cancelled. I'M GONNA KILL THE LECTURER!

Music is everything to me. You guys know I'm those kinda person who like to sing out loud. When I sing, and I'm really into it, I literally INTO it. So here's another problem I'm facing. People find me irritating with this action. So sorry to annoy you with those songs you don't usually listen to. Even though I have a great voice. HAHAHAHA! 

So tell me, what's your problem now?
:DDDDDDD

Perfect :)

What is "confidence" mean to you?
Something I didn't even wanna bother about in my old days.
Until recent years, I find out that this thing is so damn important to me.
I look up to people that is confident. Even to those person who has "excessive" confident.
Where do they get the confidence from?


I am not well-trained to be a very confident person. 
I'm always lack of self-esteem. Don't believe in myself that I'm gonna achieve in something.
Though sometimes when I receive compliment from others, I'm not willing to accept it. 


I'm afraid when people ask me whether if I have any people I admired? (those girlfriend-boyfriend relationship)
I don't know how to answer them.
I think I used to have those "passion", but not now anymore.
Why no more? Reason? 
I think most probably because, first, I'm blessed to have lots of lots of love from my family, so I don't think there's necessary to find love from someone else.
Secondly, I'm not confident to start a relationship with someone.
If I don't love myself, how can I expect people to love me?


Seriously thanks to those people who step in my life and always ask me to be more confident.
Never give up in believing me. Billions of thanks. 
I'm brave enough to say that I'm a very fragile person (as a male, which is not supposedly to be fragile)
T____T


I have to become tougher! 
Give me some time to prove it.


I have this song just come at the right time.
I don't usually post lyric and video here... but this song motivates me.
Love yourself, because you are perfect.


Perfect
Made a wrong turn
Once or twice
Dug my way out
Blood and fire
Bad decisions
That's alright
Welcome to my silly life
Mistreated, misplaced, misunderstood
Miss "no way it's all good"
It didn't slow me down
Mistaken
Always second guessing
Underestimated
Look, I'm still around...

Pretty, pretty please
Don't you ever, ever feel
Like your less than
Less than perfect
Pretty, pretty please
If you ever, ever feel
Like your nothing
You are perfect to me